难道你真的不知道我的心

你真的不知道我的最爱始终是你吗？
































































这一路走来，一年多了。说长不长，说短也不短。虽然吵架多过甜蜜；每次吵到要分开，还是熬了这么久。难道你还不知道我没有你不行吗；虽然世上没有谁不能没了谁，但是我真的很爱很爱你，你这个笨蛋就是不知道！ 有时真的很气你，很想找别人代替你，可是你是无可取代的大笨蛋！！！ 虽然我会想念过去，但是我不会因为过去而离开你！ 我真的很讨厌你！因为你不会哄人，我生气你也跟我一起生气！我只希望你能放下面子的哄哄我。大笨蛋，我爱的只有你，陈德伟和宝贝陈怡宁！

When you loved someone

First day of work went on smoothly even though I'm almost late thanks to my iPhone!
I came to realized how it feel when you really loved someone wholeheartedly, you wish to imprison them for life rather than sentence them to death. No matter what mistake they made to anger you to the extend of killing them, you just want them in your life, so you would just imprison them. Now their two person I wish to imprison for life, those two on the picture on top. I love them ttm! They can't escape from my claw even though sometime I'm really tired of holding on and wish to let go. They are just the two I can't let them get out of my life no matter how pissed I'm over them. Love you, TTW and TYN!

My big eye girl

My big eye girl, growing day by day. Watching her grow up is such a blissful thing. She just make my day everytime I watched her sleep.
Tomorrow is first day of work, wish things would goes on smoothly. Love you precious.

Insonmia

Memories kept flashing thru. Hesitating ; Insonmia.
So hard to fall asleep, the feeling of a stone up above my chest, I can't catch my breathe. There a knot, I can't untangle. I'm afraid of making wrong move. What else can I do? I just wish that my precious QOO would grow up happily. That's all.

Whole December

After giving birth to my 3.57kg precious princess on nov 28 2010, had rest for a month. She's now a month and 3 days old. She had her loudest cry and loudest laughter on the same day, 11dec2010. She laugh in the morning inside my mum's room and cried at tiong bahru clinic when this poor girl had to put a tube thru her nose to clear her throat and nose. She getting better now but acting like a koala bear now. Must hug onto people then will sleep soundly. Great! Going to start work in 1 more day time, who will be the tree for her? I can only spend more time with her now. "Good" countdown to 2011 at home.
But I had a great BBQ and meetups with my lovely bunch of secondary friends. Haven't had step into playground and chill out for such a long time, it's awesome. Should have more of these meeting seriously.
New year eve with jasmine. Slacking is all we do.


The distance in-between, we're so near yet it's still the furthest distance ever since the begaining. The topic between us is just concerning of one. The gap, the feeling; gone.
How to mend it? Things broken is still possible to mend, what about feelings?

6 more days

Poor leg and hand infected with rashes due to hormones disorder thanks to the princess. 6 more days to the expected due date. Please come out asap so the rashes will subside! Please! This is torture :(

Present from lil princess

Partially of what she gave me. Hand and leg infected with rashes like this due to pregnancy as what I know from the doctor today. Itchy, pain! Skin so sensitive now! She trying to let me have a memorable pregnancy. Last month already so many problem. Please come out asap! I can't stand anymore of the present you give. Please :(

2.9 kg girl.

Her liver and kidney in her big big stomach.


2900grams estimated, woohoo! Rollroll lost the bet already. She really gain weight real fast :)
Healthy and active girl, when are you coming out to see the world, I'm so hoping to see you! Haha!
Went to check-up today. Really feel like fainting when coming home, the feeling of ice melting under the sun, I can understand it, really! I think I better stay home till this lil girl is willing and ready to come out of my stomach to meet her family. Excited :D

19 more days

Getting nervous more than excited as days passes. I decide that I want to celebrate her baby shower during Christmas if I can. :) I'm being so paranoid recently due to the nervous. What's there more to be prepared I really don't know. Just hope things went on smoothly then. Baby's thing are really so cute nowadays. Got so much temptation to buy it all home! Ahhh!
Rollroll so sweet today, end work early wanted to gimme a surprise by coming home early expecting me to be shook but ended up I was sleeping soundly on the bed! Haha!
Dear, I know you are having hard times at work, but you are working hard to provide us with better life. I love you. I never wish to go back to the past we once goes through. Compromising is important and I never want the feeling of losing you again. <3

Steamboat, dessert and movie.

Steamboat yesterday with rollroll. Went bugis in the evening, had a filling dinner, followed by dessert :) iluma afterwhich for a movie, quite some time since we last step into the theatre. Walked around bugis junction to check out for the baby's stuff. A lot of cute thing for the baby, but intending to go for the mom & tots exhibition at expo before buying any stuff. Excited for her birth, wondering how she look like though higher percentage she look like her dad.
After movie walked to wait for cab but ended up in Mac eating nuggets when someone says he wont eat mac's food ever again. Cabbed home after that and the day come to an end. Exhausted! Lie flat and sleep!
Waiting for we'd check-up to see her weight again. (please hit 3kg) :D

21 more days

Yesterday was at my uncle house to celebrate my grandma advance birthday. Nothing special though. Mahjong after that with my cousin. Daddy took part in the begaining but end up losing all the chips after dong. -.- but luckily the chip only worth 11 bucks. Their rules are weird, not the same as how I played. Daddy came back yesterday and suggested to buy mahjong when all along since young, gambling is banned in my house. Yet he suggested, this prove that gambling is addicting! Haha! But nice suggestion still, I don't mind :D


Met Alison darling today to lend the basic theory book for her. I'm so determine to get my driving license! I want to drive my girl out to shopping :) along with my mum. Had frog porridge at bukit timah and headed to lot one to get my gastric pills. Hopefully can see her next wed to fix my phone.
Trying hard to enjoy my day when I still can move around freely without baby's wailing. But it's also time to prepare for her things. Searching online for postnatal massager but so far no hope for those high recommended one. Hope to get a good one eventually.
Tomorrow is rollroll's second off day. Should be having his desire, STEAMBOAT! :D

Princess's temper

The two line like the eyes is her liver :)



The doctor really annoyed her today. She had kick the hardest throughout the past nine months. The doctor was shocked though. Haha! She's a heavy girl weighting 2.5kg now. 3 more weeks to go. Gain more weight girl, let me win the bet with your dad.
Decided to go for a postnatal massage yet no recommendation yet. >Who can recommend please post on my tag board.

Day out with mum

Daddy will always be a hero in the daughter's heart. Mummy will always be the one daughter can talk the heart out to.

Had a day out with mummy today "working", though I'm just accompanying her. Met daddy at bishan interchange, he pick us up and headed to changi to collect document. Back to bishan as daddy got to go for meeting. Had wan chai cafe with mummy and took photo to forward to my daddy to let him jealous. Haha!
A day just past like that, finally went out for a walk after rollroll last off day. I need him around to accompany me out, but sad to say, he have to work. :(
Tomorrow check up he won't be around too :( hopefully tomorrow will be the last check up I need to go, my daughter recently move so much, like busying moving house. Haha! She's urgent to come to this earth I think, just can't stop moving. I love you, rollroll and baobei! My life just revolved around them.

First off day

My cutie pie first off day after resting for months at home. Got a new job, happy for him, but I'm never gonna get used to sleeping without him by my side. Hopefully after 3 months of working in the main outlet And get his own shop can relax a bit. I hate waking up knowing that you are leaving my sight and side. Don't like the feeling seeing you close the door and see your back view only :(

But yesterday did a really eorthy trade :) sakae sushi for iphone4! Hahaha! I know you dote on me, even though you say you are being a carrot and let me chop. Haha! Went to west mall to take the phone, imm to change number. He still spend whole night jailbreaking the phone even though he's working today. Sucha silly. Love you, rollroll!

Counting down to the time to hug him tight again.
Counting down to the day hearing her first cry too. 1 last month.

Jack's place

Dear finally found a job to his liking and with well prospect, had Jack's place at BPP with him as a kind of celebration and he owe me a meal there too. Starter, mushroom with lobster and crab. Soup we had lobster bisque and main course was always the same for both of us, Black pepper steak, steak and fish combo. Had a filling dinner with him and hopefully he can strive well in his career. He kept his promises to give me and the princess a wonderful life and he's slowly showing us that he can do it. Although it's just the begaining but I believe he will keep his words and provide us with a good life.

Check up today at clinic for the girl, counting down one month plus. Excited. We had a bet, she's 2.2kg now and I feel she will hit 3kg when we hear her first cry. But Dear feel that she will at most hit 2.8kg. Let's see who will win. HAHAHA! I've faith in myself. Though she's arriving the earth in a month plus, but she's torturing me with gastric and some intestine problem now and then. Hopefully the one month past smoothly and let me cure my urge to see my first baby girl, lovely princess. Gonna be a chubby baby :)

18th birthday.

The very first birthday having you by my side, the day I've been waiting for. thank you dear for your present, my very first branded wallet, though you are cash strapped but you still made the effort to get me a present. it's the thought that count. And having you with me the whole day is enough. I wish the rest of my birthday with you by my side,
you're the greatest present I would ever receive. And one on the way coming. :) Next year would be a even greater birthday, cause I will have you and our sweetie pie by my side celebrating. 7 more weeks, 28nov :)

在爱里成长

Married for two months, counting down to the girl's birth.

Within these two months, really been thru quite a lot, but I know there's more to come. Really don't know why I being so emotional recently. But overall, I know I love you, so I will learn to give in and compromise to let this relationship last.

因为爱你

所以愿意

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